The after you got in a fight with your best friend do you admit you were wrong, do you lay by her side and say “you have done nothing wrong”, do you kiss her forehead and sing a sad, or do you see her sitting across the quad and you walking over, but now she is a member of a new Quaker. So you sing this sad song again tomorrow and the same ending each time. The question is where? Where dose it end, when will you get your friend back.
I feel like you have dealt with losing a friend or maybe I’m wrong but from my experience, losing many friends will scar you. But you need to learn to move on, knowing that they don’t care. So make more friends, make some that keep you around no matter what you did.